in a few years maybe... maybe...I dont know.. its our/his buisness and things were better before H was of school age when we could go to the states for 3-4 weeks at a time and I would get my fill of american-ness... its seems to get harder every year.. but this going once a year is killing me bit by bit.. I think its why Matt agreed to two weeks in October .. we have book 6-7 days off of school.. but it jsut dosent seem like enough.. its going to be bad when I leave my parents house for the long drive to seattle... the funny thing is I moved here becuase I loved matt and needed to be away from my parents and now would give anything to be back in the states near them.. though My mother drives me batshit half the time.

sometimes I think I must be crazy